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| Whoa...I havent updated since the beginning of last school year...
nothing hard about my schedule this year...other than the fact that Im separated from all my friends :(
Im making new ones...but I at least want my old ones too...
overall...my life is crap right now 
but yea...I need tennis....or DDR...something to take my mind off my sister, my parents, and school...maybe thats why Im such an emotional wreck right now...go figure...to live in my family...you have to have some sort of mental defect...
hmm...enough whining...Savapa is fun  thats the school's professional choir...
and my history class is awesome! my teacher is so funny and nice!
hmmm im gonna get in a nap before school...ADIOS! | | |
| WHOO Its been a while since Ive been on here huh?! haha well Ive been so busy with school ugh!
list of things that make me busy:
*tennis
*flags (which I want to quit desperately)
*AP European History ( I actually have a test to study for  )
*AVID (TOO MANY DAMN NOTES)
now going to better things! My brother and his family came down for the weekend! and my neices are as beautiful as ever!!! AND THEY ARE MOVING DOWN FROM LA TO LIVE HERE IN EL CENTRO YAYYYY!!!!! haha but they are gonna be living with us for a while so its gonna be cramped! 9 people two bathrooms! what fun... haha wells I gotta go so Ill talk to yall laters!
-Steph | | |
| Well I got my schedule! yay! so here it is:
0- Flag team with Pond
1- Flag team with Pond
2- Avid 2 - Barringer
3- Algebra - Martinez
4- European History AP - Avila
!Lunch!
6- English 10 - Cordova
7- Biology - Valenzuela, R
Well there it is, I really didnt want history AP but they gave it to me anyways! :'( agh! and in case you dont know AP is Advance Placement...which means its a HARDER class! urg well Ill get through it I like history. And I have 2nd lunch with a couple of friends! ^^ goody! | | |
| Okay sure I had fun tonight but I felt like I embarassed myself.
okay this is what happened...my cousin asked me If I wanted to go to the mall with her so I said yea...so she picked me up at 5:30. Okay so then we picked up two more of her friends...then we went to the mall hung out for a while then my cousin left to picked up her "lil cousin" so we all just hung out for a while...then my friend calls and says that hes coming to the mall right now...and since I already had plans with him and a couple of friends to go to the drive in I was like well we can see a movie here then. So we saw a movie and got my cousin to get us tickets to Wedding Crashers since it was rated R. Ok so we get in then my cousin calls me yelling at me and telling me that I got her in trouble with my grandma and everything so I tell her that Ill call grandma later and straighten everything out. Then a little while later my best friend calls me and I ask her if I can call her back later shes ok with it but I feel kinda bad because I dont get to talk to her often. So i hang up with her then a little later my other friend calls me, so I tell her if I can call her back later...needless to say that I dont feel bad about that :P. So all the while my cousin keeps calling me telling me all this stuff and that shes pissed and that I owe her...so Im not enjoying the movie very much... Then I tell her that the movie is ending in about 20 minutes and she says ok....so right when the movie is ending, theres prolly about 5 or 10 more minutes my cousin calls and tells me to get my ass outside and that she was waiting for me. So I tell my friend that I got to go... i swear I wanted to cry but I wouldnt do it in public. So then my cousin is waiting outside the car and asks me if the movie was over and I tell her no. so she keeps telling me "oh ok then lets go back in and finish it..." and I keep walking towards the car while she yells at me to turn around and go finish it , and all that time Im just thinking..."okay she was being all bitchy before and now shes trying to be nice? what the f*** is going on with her?!"
So I get to the car and everyone is waiting there and my cousin is still yelling at me so she gets to the car and trys to get me out so finally after much fustration and trying to hold my tears back I yell that the movie is probably already over. So she gets mad and gets in the car and Im yelling at her the whole time saying: "I cant ever go out because danielles always out so I have to help take care of things at home while shes gone, and you get to go out because you have your liscense but I have to stay home all day I dont have a liscense like you or danielle do." I might add that there was a lot more cussing in there...A LOT. and then finally my cousin is all "F*** this" and turns around and parks.
So everyone gets out and leaves except for Heather, she was really nice and started talking to me about it. It did help a lot that she was there because I finally got everything out. You see, Danielle is out all the damn time, and my mom has it rough without someone there to help her with things. plus if I did have the chance to go out there would be no one to take me. my cousin can get out anytime she wants to because of her liscence...and with shit at home I cant do anything so I basically have no life. And the one time I do go out My cousin makes me feel like its a inconveinence to her. And if you know me well enough, youll know that I hate being an inconveinence to someone. I feel bad about it because im wasting their time. So I was basically pissed off.
So I call my sister and ask her if she can come pick me up and she says yea and we hang up. Then my cousin comes and trys to talk to me but I dont really say anything to her, so she calls my sister and tells her that SHE is going to take me home. So everybody gets in the car, and oddly enough they all try to make me feel better, including my cousin. She trys to make up for it by making me laugh and buying me a tea...the whole time we were laughing and I still felt embarassed about crying in front of everyone so I tell them "im sorry I was crying" and they make me feel better by telling me that they all have done it and to not worry about it.
And you have to understand...I dont like to cry a lot...in fact I hate to cry a lot. And when I do cry its because I bottle up all my emotions and it gets to a point where Ive bottled them up for so long that they just burst out like they did today. Im not proud of it...but I do admit that I needed to cry and I needed to get it out...and weird thing is, is that normally some of my friends would have put me down for it. But these girls that I barely met today made me feel............
good.
So if you have read this all the way through Congrats! Your my real friend :D and thanks for listening or reading or whatever....
p.s. I never got to see the end of that movie....
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